Not a cheerful receiver

Warning: Seriously embarrassing internal flaw to be revealed.

I LOVE to give gifts. I love watching people open the gifts I've bought for them and can't wait for the moment they see their gift. When I'm shopping and I see something PERFECT for them, I'll buy it...regardless of budget or season. I really do love to give. But receiving? Not so much. It's not that I'm not thankful, I am. The fact that someone thought of me is so great, it's just that I never react well. I can't look at a present without FIRST seeing something wrong with it. "Oh, it's not my color....What do I do with this?....What the hell is this?...." These are all the first thoughts that go through my head. I have to go with this is learned behavior from somewhere, because quite honestly, I am appalled that this is one of my character traits. I can't even manage a simple "Thank you" without going through this knowingly screwes up process. Example: Picture it 2002, St.Louis, our first Christmas...Jayson gives me a gift. A WATCH! (backstory: I'd been needing a watch) I open it....and the first words out of my mouth: "Roman numerals, really? A Blue face....hmmmmm" I couldn't just freaking say THANK YOU???? Of course, Jayson's feelings were super hurt (UNDERSTANDBLY) and actually a couple of minutes later I realized that the watch was great and that I did love it. The point is that it wasn't my FIRST instinct to be thankful. This has caused a PLETHORA of awkward situations even after I have tried with all my might not to be that way. I mean I'm sure that even if you bought me tickets to Wicked, I'm sure my first thought would be "I'm not sure I like where those seats are". What is WRONG with me?

Please understand something if you are reading this and you have or were planning to give me gifts....I ALWAYS END up being thankful and appreciative of the gift, It's just my initial reaction that is so jacked up. Except when my sis-in-law gave out dollar store douches at Christmas...I never really liked that.