there's a reason

that God didn't make me a stay-at-home Mom. I Love, Adore, Worship my kids, but I can NOT be around them for more than 8 hours a day. Maybe it's because I'm an older mother, maybe it's because I'm a less patient person than most. Maybe, just maybe it's because I've created two human beinsgs that know they can scream to get what they want (!) For any reason, they wear on me in large doses. Yet, also make me laugh ALOT. Addison is 2 and her way to get my attention is to repeat several dozen times "Mommy, Look" then repeat what she wants me to see a dozen more. Really, this is only funny when she wants me to see berries (she calls them boobies). I wish I had a dollar for every time I say "Yes, Yes, I see". Now here's the Rub- because I can feel the heat rising in my body every time I hear Addi's blood curling scream or Dallas' beginnings of a fit---I feel like a total failure as a parent. I mean, it's not like I see them so often...this is SUMMER! It's why I became a teacher....to spend time with my kids. So, why am I going nuts and can't wait for school to start? Am I just lazy? Ugghhh....I don't think there is an answer.